I cut my hair on Wednesday... and it's funny to have different opinions about it, female friends say it looks better now, male friends say they miss my long hair and that why did I do that and such... Who should I hear? Well... it's just hair, it will grow up again [I hope] Conclusion: boys seem to like long hair in girls XD. Mhhh... It's still long to me, but they say it's short *rolleyes* I always wanted to do something to my hair and it feels better now. Anyway...

Wrote a story yesterday. A really short one, and maybe the best thing I have wrote ever. Why?... I just dunno, I had this Clover influence, and after 3 days of listening to 'Owaranai Machi' again and again, somehing inside me was being built. This one page story turned out to have a good written development, congratulate myself 'cause this is a simple but a neat piece of art, I can't say that many times, you know... Maybe I'll upload it one of those days.

I found this ring some weeks ago, when everything around me was nothing, yeah... that day I was shocked by... those news I messed up... It was so weird. I felt towards it to be a small present coming from somewhere far to calm down my sorrow... Actually it's small, fake and a bit big... but I loved it since I saw it ^^'... It was like if it always had to belong to me. With this ring I was closing my sorrow, I was closing my heart to what happenned that day and erase it forever of my mind. Obviously I couldn't, why? Because all the plans I have made by far where unconciously being made with one single reason... When I thought of forgetting and trying to focus myself on acomplish those goals, I found myself without a sense on doing what I planned on for years. It was necessary no more. It was nothing now. It had no reason to be done. But I closed my sorrow. I realized many things. I built up those things with new reasons as a solid basis which no one could break but me.
After that, I knew I was wrong, that I messed up news... See... I didn't know whether to feel relieved or stupid. Anyhow, I closed my sorrow and opening it was difficult after what happenned. I started it over again and decided to run things good from now on.
It is really funny, just a week before finding this ring I felt a total happiness in my heart, with no reason actually, I was like 'nanka shiawase!'. But it was a happiness with no adress 'cause actually that day was a total nightmare... Who could image all the pain that followed after... I related that happinnes to something I could felt but no see, so I felt it. One week after I thought of how stupid I was for not guessing why did I felt like that. But it was a mistake. Something I shouldn't care about anymore now... Though the idea of what it could be remains in my mind still. And it hurts.
I need time, I just need more time. Can you wait?



¤ It was 02:42 PM... and these were just... words into the silence...