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06/02/2005: "Jour"

I stayed up waiting... I couldn' make it yesterday, so I do apologize... I stayed at home, I spent the afternoon alone in my room, watching tv to distract myself... saw two movies... studied, though I didn't felt like to... I couldn't anyway... and waited... it was 23:22 and I am sill waiting, you hadn't get mad at me, had you? I felt sad... I wanted to apologize but I couldn't... Missed you... a lot... I wonder if he got mad at me for what happenned on saturday... is it that I am always ruining everything?... did I ruin it?... was he mad at me?... Silence... speaks... I missed him all day... I missed him all night... I am feeling very bad about saturday... I almost spoil what I care for the most now... Does he love me still... ?... namida... I care for him... damn I care for him very much... and I am very sorry for all... I am always doing the things wrong... I need him... I don't want to lose him... my head is just so messed up with things... I can't think right...

Goddess, don't let this all to be fake...

on Monday, April 11th, Pepe said

Hi honey... Oh baby, don't worry about what happenned last saturday. Did I tell you how much I love U? I Love you, i need you. You taught me how much I can love one person in this world, in this life... i don't know if this love is enough but it's all i have... Remember dear, I told you my heart it's yours... I don't want to lose you now... Please, stay with me... Against everything...

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e-mail <agata_june@yahoo.com>
msn <shirou_june@hotmail.com>
location <Bolivia>
age <22>
zodiac <Virgo>
occupation <Vampire, designer, publicist>
band <Siam Shade>
jrocker <Imamura Hideki - x Siam Shade, ACID vo.>
image song <Life - Siam Shade>
character <Yuzuriha Nekoi [X 1999]>
current mood <>
I am I <Female [just in case you haven't figured it out yet]. Web-designer. Wizard. College Student. Publicist. Dreamer. Duelist. Loves anime & manga. Has an obsession with JRock. Specially Siam Shade [the best JRock band her ears have ever listen to]. Speaks spanish, that's why her english [and the other languages she tries to speak] s---!>
behind Siam Shade listens to <JRock {Gackt C. Glay. Takui. Janne da Arc. ACID. L'Arc~en~Ciel. Luna Sea. X-Japan. Lareine. B'z. Yumiko Kozaka}
As much as it seems not all in her life is JRock...
JPop {Maaya Sakamoto. Access. TMR}
KPop {Ahn-Jae Wook. SES. TVQX}>
also hears a few of more 'normal' music
<Juanes. La Oreja de Van Gogh. La Ley>

anime @ manga

anime <Tekkaman Blade>
manga <Elementalors>
fanatism <X 1999>
addiction <Gravitation>
styles <shounen, dark, shounen ai>
seiyuus <Tomokazu Seki, Hikaru Midorikawa and Megumi Hayashibara>
respects <Hayao Miyasaki. Clamp. Shoji Kawamori. Spiral ~suiri no hizuna~. Gravitation's character designer [whoever he/she is] and all the staff involved in the anime series, the manga, the music and everything related to it! [excepting remix]>

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BEAUTIFUL DREAMER <version4.0>
Suu & Kazuhiko [Clover]

related <Words all around related to Clamp's CLOVER manga. Also, title and signature belong to Glay - BEAUTIFUL DREAMER amazing song. Then... "tashika ni ima hi ga tomoru... tashika ni ima!" means "just now a light was lit... just now~" that belongs to the BEAUTIFUL DREAMER lyrics.
Who's the Beautiful Dreamer? err... Suu might be [stop looking at me! -_-] I only thought that the title suited perfect the design, besides I love this song! As I always say: 'Great Glay', they always came up with melodies that light up your day! [no matter you can't understand the lyrics *cof*] The song is a must hear, accompanied with great violonchelos and violins. Music & Lyrics by Takuro. I better stop before this starts looking like a review.
Even I found the english translation to the lyrics I can hardly understand the meaning of the song itself... as you read it this is the story of a person enjoying every day and after that... your are suddenly told another story that doesn't seem to fit in the lyrics, this is the story behind him, the past that is present in every day and forever will be here. His decision was to forget about it all and choosed to live the day, that's leaving all behind, living present, because Memories can't come back, so don't be tricked by the dreams and live, ~it's all to become beautiful~
it says... Just gorgeous, a complete story told in few sentences... [mmhhh... doesn't it sound like Rurouni Kenshin? XD] Anyway, that's the conclusion I reached about, after reading and hearing to it 100 times... Confusing... don't understand it at all... well, yes... anyhow I love it. Now is a complete review v.vU
Yeah... I know... I know... too much green due to 200clover... Hey, look! I made Suu smile ^^ Just basic editing skills to not see her sad as in the original image... the wing little effect is really cool also, I always like to try new things>

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